To all and to all a good night.
xoxo
Wow. So it has been a while. Obviously my husband is here. YEAH! I have a lot less free time now. Along with him he brought everything we owned and I'm still trying to unpack and organize everything two weeks later. That's pretty much what keeps me busy these days. I have way too much stuff and when I start to go through it it just turns into memory lane. Saturday night while I was supposed to be cleaning and organizing, my sister and I ended up spending hours reading through my old journals and notebooks. I couldn't bear to part with them in the end. It was fun. Man, was I dramatic! While I was younger every other day it was "I hate my mom!" and when I was older I was always "in love". Somehow I loved every boy I dated, a bit naive I'd say. I definitely know love was a little premature for those relationships. It also brought a little sadness. One of the notebooks I was looking through was mine and Sarah B.'s old 'note' notebook. We were so close once upon a time. She was my me. We wrote each other pages and pages a day filled with our hopes, life, poems to each other...and now we are nothing more than myspace friends. It's hard to think about how sour our friendship went. Unfortunately people change and circumstances arise and one day things aren't as they used to be and people move on.....or something like that.
In addition to the unpacking and such Larry and I have been spending tons of time together. The first weekend was def like a honeymoon phase. We were just so happy to be with each other nothing could bring us down. I cannot even explain the feelings of seeing each other for the first time in three months....it was amazing. Of course we are still completely happy, but life interferes a little more now. He's def trying a lot harder to be sweet and considerate...sometimes I wonder what happened to my husband. Who is this guy who does all the dishes? I'm not sold yet though....it's still too soon to tell if it will last. I'm just so glad to have him here with me though....to fall asleep in his arms, to eat dinner with him, to share every bit of my life with him. I def took all those things for granted before we were apart.
The holidays are almost upon us. I have my tree up, which is quite an accomplishment since I'm not even fully unpacked, but it's naked because I need to get more lights. It would be nice if that were done by Christmas. I have a very short list this year since I am not gonna be home, that and we are broke (not that that's unusual). I don't really think it's fully hit me that I will not be in Iowa for the holidays. It almost doesn't really seem like Christmas is coming. Yeah, I've bought a few presents and I have my naked tree up, but it's not really real to me. I'm sure the weather could have a lot to do with it. It sure doesn't feel like Christmas weather. Sure it gets chilly and I've been spoiled and find it cold, but honestly it's nothing compared to what it's like back home.
Well, I promised myself I would be productive while I had the place to myself tonight (Ash and Larry are at her acting class) so I better get to it.
xoxo
The rest of the weekend I was pretty damn lazy. I scrubbed it and lounged around with my sis watching entirely too much t.v and movies. Nice though, especially since we won't have as much one on one time when Larry gets here, which may I add is SOON! My husband is leaving Thursday morning! Three long months we have spent apart and at the end of this week he will be here. It's been so long it's hard to believe that he'll really be here.
On a very serious note my Aunt just told me tonight that my 17 year old cousin is pregnant. At first I just freaked out, but now I am just overwhelmed by sadness. She is such a smart girl who has made such stupid decisions in her life and this last one is going to change her life forever. She has a lot of growing up to do in the next nine months.
xoxo
Life....hmmmm...what has been happening in mine as of late? Well, I've been working a lot. I definitely feel better about myself now that I am working full time again. You'd think that only working two days a week would be great, but it just wasn't for me. Now I feel like I don't have time for anything, but that's better than feeling lazy. And the job is going pretty well. Still learning the ropes really.
My husband finally arrives in California in 10 days!!!!! I cannot wait. It has been too long. It's almost unreal to me that he's gonna be here since I've been living my life without him for three months. Larry watch is upon us, as George has taken to saying. Matt and Larry are driving out and Matt will have a day to spend in Cali before he has to fly back. We are going to try to make the most of it and pack in as much as we can.
The holidays are upon us! The holidays always make me think of SG. I'm sure she has her tree up by now. Mine will be up as soon as Larry gets here. I cannot wait to put up my tree! This year will def be different. Hopefully not too depressing since I will be spending it without so many people I love. And there will be no snow. I don't know how sad I really am about that though. I made my wish list for Christmas SG-style 
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All this talk about Christmas when Thanksgiving is in two days. I don't even want to think about it. Ash and I are hosting Thanksgiving at our humble abode, our empty humble abode. I thought it was a good idea, until the ball started rolling and now I feel as if I have gotten in over my head. There will be nine of us. Raquel and Mick are making the turkey, gravy, and a pie. Ash and I are responsible for mashed potatoes, stuffing, cream corn casserole, fruit salad, and rolls. Oh yeah and neither of us really cooks so this should be fun. Wish me luck. I have the next four days off though so I shall be enjoying it.
XOXO
So tonight is another showing for that photo shoot that my sister did. It's actually her photo on the invitation. The photo that cost $7200, just thought I'd remind ya. I'm gonna go for a little bit and check it out. Really just to see the photo up close.
Expensive though, good thing I didn't have to pay. What a great grandma I have. It's been nice having her here, like having a little piece of home here.
Well, since I am a career woman now I must be getting ready for bed. I need my beauty rest.
That loneliness and homesickness that I try to keep deep within has snuck up on me yet again. My birthday is on Monday and I'm sure that is why I am so down lately. It is usually something I make such a big deal of. I take the whole week for my birthday, it is my birthday week and everything is about me. This year it's just another day. My husband is not here to spend it with me, instead we are miles apart, both hurting inside. It's not even really about my birthday because really who cares? It's just the fact that I am so far away from so many people I love. It hurts. I try to look at the positives like the fact that Larry will be here in a month, my new job, making up for lost time with my sister, the beautiful sights and weather I live in, but it doesn't dull the pain now. That I miss everyone so much and don't know the next time I will see them. It sure is tough trying to make a better life...
This week has had its ups and downs. I'm not gonna go into detail on all of it, but I'm hoping it will all work out. On another note it has been a pretty busy week with work at the restaurant, getting stuff done for the new job, and hanging out with my family (not counting Ash who I see everyday, even though I love hanging out with her and she was there). Mick and Eli came over twice this week which was a nice treat. Wednesday we took a trip to the pumpkin patch so Ash and I could get pumpkins. Today we went to a cute park in Burbank, a toddler-friendly park, which is a new concept to me. It showed me how Eli interacts with other kids, which is something I don't really get to see. Let's just say he needs to work on his sharing skills a little bit. He's an only child who's life is pretty much spent 24/7 with only mom and dad so he isn't quite used to playing with other kids. It was very interesting to watch needless to say. It was all in all a good time and I uploaded some new pics on Flickr for all to see his cuteness.
First off let me just let out a huge sigh of relief....I put in my two weeks today and it wasn't even that bad. I was making myself sick about it all shift for nothing. She was really cool about it. I'm so glad....and tonight I'm gonna go shopping for some new work clothes. I have to dress nice and I don't have a whole lot of work wear. Oh, yeah and I waited on Kevin Smith today for the second time and let me tell ya, he rocks. Nice as can be and really appreciates people in the service industry. He seriously tips 50%. What a guy. That's really all I have to say....
The good news is that I got the job and they are going to pay me $16.50/hr. The bad news is I have to tell the Griddle owner tomorrow when I'm working that I'm quitting. It's not going to make for a pleasant experience. I thought I was scared to tell Lucky at Chick-Fil-A I was quitting when I was 16, that experience pales in comparison. It's gonna make for a bad day for me and my sister both. Lucky for me I only have two weeks to put up with it, unfortunately for my sister she has to stay and deal. I wonder if she regrets getting me the job. Other than the dread and the guilt though I am feeling pretty good about myself....
The other day we had lunch at a cute cafe called There's No Place Like Home and walked around our street checking out all the little shops. It almost reminds me of the East Village of Davenport, except there's more shops. Saturday she went to the exhibition of the artist who she participated in a photo shoot for. There was a piece in the show of her that was sold for $7200. Can you imagine? Makes a girl feel good, huh? Here's a link to a trailer for his show. You can see Ash twice in it.
Heading out to the store......
